just don’t expect me to follow through on anything

& you know its coming to get you.

“When you consider yourself valuable you will take care of yourself in all ways that are necessary.”

“Its gonna hit like a ton of bricks.”

“The human body is made up of systems that keep it alive. The one that keeps you breathing, the one that keeps you standing, the one that makes you hungry, and the one that makes you happy. They’re all connected, take a piece out and everything else falls apart. And it’s only when our support systems look like they might fail us that you realize how much we depended on them all along.”

- Meredith Grey.

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“My sickness is that I’m fascinated by human behavior, by what’s underneath the surface, by the worlds inside people.”

- Johnny Depp

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Yeah. 

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“When she walked into the studio… I was very surprised by her beauty. She had a kind of beauty that was then slightly “otherworldly”, slightly not quite of this planet. There’s such a fragility about her. I put her in a room full of mirrors and asked her to behave like she hated her reflection. She beat her fists against the mirror until they bled. And she screamed screams that came from somewhere very deep. I do think she’s fantastic.”

-Nick Knight on Gemma Ward.

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“I feel as though it’s all happening to someone right next to me. I’m close, I can feel it, I can hear it, but it isn’t really me.”

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“Everyone has such heavy hearts these days; so I am trying desperately to keep ahead of the mess, with deep breaths and carefully paced pieces of prose, choosing to rely more on nostalgia and less on the present, half assed comparisons and solace in the melancholy memories of before. I found all my reasons for leaving tucked between sentences, charts and maps that detail the phases of loss, of grief, and bad habits itching as reminders. Summers humidity was laced with so many moments of bad timing, falling out of and back towards night. But autumn will bring even more uncharted changes, attempts at trust, attempts at believing, attempts at taking comfort in our swollen words and bruises we wear with pride.. cradling the idea that theres nothing we can learn but the alchemy of growth and trying and willingness… “

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